Summary of My Mental Madness Memoir

Summary of MY MENTAL MADNESS MEMOIR by author Stephanie Anne Allen

            My Mental Madness Memoir is the very profound, provoking, and personal true story of my life.  My life has seen much heartache and pain due to suffering from several severe mental illnesses, including depression, bipolar disorder, schizophrenia, schizoaffective disorder, and borderline personality disorder.  I was plagued with darkness, mental agony, internal turmoil, mania, delusions, hallucinations, sadness, and loneliness to just name a few.  My insanity let me to committing a crime, at which time I was completely “out of it”.  And for the crime, I suffered even more heartache and pain.  I also have a history of self-mutilation and suicidal attempts.  I have been hospitalized psychiatrically more times than you can count on your fingers and toes.  I lost jobs, friends, relationships, cars, homes, etc.  I had completely hit so many points in my life, where most people would have simply given up.  But I was the exception!  I beat all the many odds and emerged from my mental madness.

            Despite wanting to give up so many times and wanting to just “end it”, I was able to find what I needed to turn my chaotic life around.  I found the courage, strength, faith, and hope to convert my “rock bottom” into a progressive upward direction of energy.  I was able to get the treatment that I very much needed to get well, but that came after I achieved self-awareness of my illnesses.  I achieved recovery and resilience, and now I am sharing my story with the world, in an effort to end stigma and ignorance, and to bring awareness to others on the topic of mental illness. 

            This book will surely stir your every emotion!  Get ready for this intense internal insanity, that will provoke you and want you to continue reading from the very first to the very last word.  It is surely a page-turner that you will not put down.  For readers of this book, I hope you will have an open mind and an open heart as you are reading this.  My Mental Madness Memoir is about total honesty and I hide absolutely nothing.  I want you to see and feel what it is really like to be mentally ill.  Also, your reading experience will open up doors for you to feel like you are the one in the story.  You will become a more empathetic and compassionate person just by reading/listening to this book!

(My Mental Madness Memoir is available in eBook, paperback, and audiobook!  www.amazon.com/author/allenstephanie)

Best Friend's story of surviving "SCHIZOPHRENIA"

Mary B. was just a mere 15 years old when she was given the diagnosis of Paranoid Schizophrenia.  This label seemed to make the disease itself worse.  She felt like an outcast and a "socially unacceptable" misfit.  But today at 38 years old, she has evolved from the stigma and is giving back by helping others in similar situations.

It all began with a broken family and her grandparents taking on the responsibility of raising her. Her grandparents began having problems with getting Mary to go to bed at night.  She only wanted to stay awake and became obsessed with doing her homework all night and folding her clothes continuously in a meticulous matter.  Mary would be described at that time an insomniac, a perfectionist, and an obsessive compulsive person.

Upset with her grandpa's rules and suffering from severe sleep deprivation, Mary B. called the police who took her to a psychiatric hospital for admission.   She stayed there for 7 days.

At age 16, Mary, who was highly upset by having her grandparents raise her, ran away and went to a motel.  She began hearing voices through the walls.  They were haunting her and telling her to "go away".  Being mentally unstable and out of control, she "trashed" the motel room and threw her keys out into the parking lot.  The cops were called.  Mary went to the door half naked and the cops had assumed she was doing crack.  They instructed her to leave the hotel at once.

At age 17, she attempted to work as a dishwasher.  But it was a constant struggle for her to do this job or any job.    She reported to me that she threw her first paycheck off a bridge and that she never cashed any of her checks.  She recalls seeing a grim reaper and a devil with a machete under the bridge.   She tells me that it was a "dark, shadowy image".

At age 18, she dropped out of high school because she thought everybody was talking about her.  She recalls feeling like a "loner".

She mentions to me that at age 20 she was walking down the street.  And that at this time the voices were talking to her, saying that one side of the street was "godly" while the other was evil.  Mary remembers empting her wallet behind a bush.  Then she stripped off all her clothes and went running through the woods.  She thought she was Jesus Christ.  She returned to the road and the cops came and took her to a mental hospital.  There she was placed on anti-psychotic medication.

At age 21, she recalls an incident were she was extremely suicidal and rode her bike 8 miles to the hospital.   Then they admitted her and placed her on an anti-depressant as well.

Mary describes her struggle with mental illness as "very hard and scary"  She said she lost a lot of sleep and was having "nerve problems".  Even today, Mary states that the "meds don't help all the way".  She said "recovery was great!  I took my meds to stop the symptoms from coming back.  And I am going to continue to take my medications to keep me healthy!"

Thanks to Mary B. for sharing her story with us!

Please look out for the next book in the How to Survive Series.  It is called How to Survive Schizophrenia!
Best Wishes,
--Stephanie

Today's Topic: "INSIGHT & INSPIRATION into INSANITY!"

INSIGHT & INSPIRATION into INSANITY

By: Stephanie Anne Allen

            Mental illness and insanity are not the same.  While mental illness affects our moods and thoughts, insanity is a condition in which a person (who may or may not have mental illness) is not touch with reality.  They are not in control of their actions and their behaviors can become “socially unacceptable” or even “criminal” without the insane person’s awareness.   A person with mental illness may never experience “true insanity”.  Just as a person who is considered insane may have no history of mental illness.  But there are a handful of people who experience both insanity and mental illness. 

            A mentally ill person may experience symptoms such as delusions and hallucinations, but this is not “true” insanity.   True insanity is when a people loses “touch with reality” and has absolutely no awareness of what is happening around them, and no control over their behaviors.  These insane people may commit crimes, and they will not even be knowledgeable of what they had done and will certainly have no awareness while committing the crime.

            We have seen it all over the news lately with people blaming crimes on mental illness.  No, these crimes do not occur because someone has a mental illness.  Some of the crimes may occur as a result of actually insanity, but that is rare.  Most of these crimes are committed by people who have full use of their faculties.  They are committed by people who are truly criminal and no regard for society, decency, and morality. 

            There are only a few actual people who commit crimes due to insanity!  These are good people who lost touch with reality and had no idea what was going on around them.  These are decent, kind, and respectable people who have broken the law, because they were “insane” and had no understanding, whatsoever, of what they were doing.  People in this category often receive a Not Guilty by Reason of Insanity ruling during their criminal trials.  They are then committed to a state forensic hospital for a term of incarceration.

            Is there hope for those who suffer from insanity?  Can we “reform” them back into productive members of society?  Are they capable of fully recovering?  Yes, it is certainly possible, as I myself am an example.  I fought the hard battle with bravery and persistence.  I emerged from this insanity, and I feel that I have become a much better person due to all the adversity that I had endured.

            I was successfully treated for my severe mental illness and insanity.  I put into use my “survival skills” and I transformed what was a “bad situation” into one that is hopeful and offers inspiration to others in similar situations.  I went through hell, in order for me, to become the person I am today.  I was never a bad or evil person at all, but going through this hell helped change me into a much better person than I ever was.  I gained insight. I gained strength, courage, and faith.  I became a much more empathic and compassionate person.  I became grateful for things I had always taken for granted.   Using coping skills, I was able to emerge from my disturbing world and find the light once again.

            It is possible to recover from both insanity and mental illness.  It is doable.  And I promise you that it will be worth it in the end.  Each life was created for a purpose, and you will find yours.  Mine was to spread love and inspiration to all who suffer from mental illness and insanity.  I embrace this as my reason to exist in this very world.  And I hope that you shall pull through your problems and reach out and take control of your world, too!

Books by Stephanie Anne Allen:
My Mental Madness Memoir
How to Survive Depression
How to Survive Bipolar Disorder

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www.amazon.com/author/allenstephanie

Today's Topic: "My Books"

Dear Friends and Fans, I am writing this post to reach out to all who may benefit from my books. Currently I have 3 books out!

1. My Mental Madness Memoir--The provocative TRUE journey through my struggles with mental illness.
2. How to Survive Depression--Book #1 in the How to Survive Series
3. How to Survive Bipolar Disorder--Book #2 in the How to Survive Series

I wrote My Mental Madness Memoir to inspire other by showing you the perfect example of perserving in the face of ultimate defeat.

I began the How to Survive Series to provide education, hope, inspiration, and tips on how to successfully cope.   I am currently working on the third book in that series.

                                                                   

 

                                                                   

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I want you all to know that recovery and resilience from mental illness is possible.  Please reach out and invite all your friends to read my blog.  

Thank you for spreading the love!

Much Love to you all!

Stephanie